This morning I woke up to fresh coffee and The Cranberries playing on the CD player. Now he’s making sure I have clean sheets and blankets. Yesterday he cleaned the entire house, brought me a bouquet of flowers, and cooked alfredo pasta for dinner. He listened to me as I cried and expressed how deeply […]

There’s nothing I can write that hasn’t been said. I’m not a poet. But Renee Good was. Was… Till she was brutally murdered by a misogynist racist fucking nazi. Now the government that caused this is gaslighting the public into believing she was a terrorist when the video of her murder is right there. I’ll […]

There are so many things I can’t control in this world but I can always do my best to make my inner world peaceful. If my inner world is peaceful it far more possible to be of service for others. Plus, they want us in a constant fear loop and to be controlled by the […]

My last entry was written in a totally funky obligatory mood. That’s okay. This is a diary, right? Just because I have it online for all to see doesn’t mean it can’t be an actual diary with all the ramblings and honesty a diary entails. With a little holding back… But I’d like to get […]

"Be gone from me, oh mortals who are pure of heart. Be gone from my thoughts, oh souls that dream great dreams. Be gone from me, all hymns of glory. I am the magnet for the damned. At least for a little while. And then my heart cries out, my heart will not be still, my heart will not give up, my heart will not give in—
—the blood that teaches life will not teach lies, and love becomes again my reprimand, my goad, my song."
–Lestat, Anne Rice